I only have about 10 days left until the stress really, really starts to rise!
I’m kidding, of course.
Well, kind of.
I’m scared and excited and proud and scared – and also excited.
The adrenaline that is coursing through my veins these days is something I have not felt in a long time, and I like the feeling. It’s exciting, it’s got my nerve endings moving and all that good stuff.
But as my year without sugar continues – I have had some cravings but nothing has as yet broken my resolve, I’m quite proud to say.
Three months have nearly come and gone and I’m feeling – well, I’m feeling a little stiff. The weather in the month of March has vacillated between cold and really, really cold, so the lack of a lot of warm, sunny days has left me dealing with some joint stiffness.
However, being down 42 pounds in the amount of time that it’s taken for winter to turn into spring – roughly – has given me even more motivation to continue along this path. I haven’t really had night-time cravings and if I do get hungry, I indulge in some sugar-free peanut butter or a sugar-free protein bar.
It’s been very, very manageable.
Part of my impulsivity is the lack of dopamine that many people with ADHD have and I’ve found ways to manage it with help from my therapist and my loved ones. I’ve started once again having a daily tablespoon of high-quality fish oil to help my pitiful joints and to help curb those impulses.
The Omega-3 fats in the brain help produce extra dopamine – I think.
But the fact remains that my year without sugar remains intact and the hardest, darkest part of the year is in the rear-view mirror.
Some anxiety is still there – I have to increase my business at the new gym in order to satisfy the rent I have to pay on the place, and that’s obviously a concern that’s in the back of anyone’s mind – but I have yet to give in despite some very, very tough days I am learning to manage a minute at a time.
Obviously, everyone has their bottom-line concerns, though, and this appears to be a case of having the right kind of energy for the task I have given myself, not the kind of energy that makes me want to go through an entire bag of cookies or something similar.
Yes, it has been that bad. I’m sure I’m not the only one; I’m just the only one crazy enough to cop to it for the whole world to see.
Have no fear, though.
I’m good. Stress is lower than it’s been in some time and I’m genuinely excited about the challenge in front of me, if only for the good reason that I will have a professional space to call my own.
I’m starting to meet clients at Monster to give them a tour and sneak peek next week. If there’s anyone out there intrigued by what the place has to offer – and it is substantial – I will be scheduling meetings there starting Monday. It’s a great space with a very vibrant feel and an atmosphere that lends itself to training with purpose.
E-mail me at marclalondfitness@gmail.com and we’ll get you started.